My Unrequited Loves

Unrequited love could easily be described as my forte. When I look back over the years there really have been an impressive number of men that I’ve managed to lose my head over and have it all come to nothing. You could almost say I was somewhat of an expert.

My first unrequited love was Isaac Hanson. He was perhaps the least good looking and most decidedly dorky of the pop trio, and I knew, in that way only a 14 year old girl can know, that we were destined to be together.

Alas, he never returned my letters and ultimately married some other Hanson fan.

Since then my list of unrequited loves has grown longer, and still clearly reflects my taste for rather dorky men. Actually, when I look back, they all bear a eerie similarity to Isaac, in one way or another. And much like Isaac, they have all followed a pattern of falling for women slightly more conventional than myself. All of whom, have been brunettes.

For the most part though, this has been for the best. When the broken heart heals and you can finally relate to those former ‘loves’ as friends, you usually realise that you never would have suited each other anyway. It’s a strange feeling to spend time with someone you used to adore, and feel totally confident that you would have made them completely miserable. It’s a sense of closure that I have become quite accustomed to. That is until my latest, and perhaps most ridiculous unrequited love (apart from dear Isaac, of course) was revealed to be engaged. To my clone.

I can handle the inherent but intentionally ignored incompatibility that accompanies the vast majority of my Unrequiteds, but circumstance and timing? That is so much harder to deal with. While she is not physically my clone, by all accounts there are degrees of similarity in temper, humour and rampant inappropriateness that are difficult to ignore. Now I can only take solace in knowing that my instincts were right. Albeit ill-timed.

That, and having the knowledge that nice, dorkish men do fall for outspoken, vaguely inappropriate women such as myself. We just need to be really, really patient. Like, until our mid-thirties patient.

The trick remains not to get too distracted or put off by all the jerks along the way.

If any of you figure out that trick, please let me know. I need to share it with the world.

2002

The year I first began blogging was my second year of university and my first foray into having a reasonably extensive group of friends that I enjoyed drinking with. As such, my blog posts from this time mostly consist of bitching about a reception job, studying biochemistry, internet quizzes, photos of my pets, and detailed recounts of evenings spent drinking.

It also seemed to be the year I shunned appropriate capitalisation and using apostrophes to develop some kind of ‘writing style’. Retrospectively I can say that it just looks sloppy, but it’s hard to argue with a past version of yourself. I clearly hadn’t adopted any kind of style or structure for blogging and everything was a random collection of thoughts, usually written as I was having them.

The entry I have chosen to republish represents the closest I came to something that could be considered a proper blog post. It also rather amused me as I think I am slowly becoming the subject matter of this post. Except instead of glassware, I have Tupperware and instead of a Volvo, I am aspiring to a Mini.

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12 May 2002 – 2:42 pm

today i set new standards in the realm of clashing footwear! (blue w maroon)

i just caught my dog barking at her reflection… oh dear. she’s gone nuts.

just came back from mothers day picnic and am regretting not taking camera as i have devloped the following criterium for spotting western suburbian picnics….

HOW TO SPOT PICNIC GOERS FROM THE WESTERN SUBURBS

please not that this applies to brisbane, australian residents only – although these people are everywhere

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These people bring seating with them to picnics, usually in the form of an overpriced canvas seating, or camping sets of chairs w built in beverage holders.

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Note the cutlery and glass wear. If people bring objects made out of glass and metal, this can be an important indication of western suburban origin.

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The prescence of childrens toys such as scooters, wagons and colourful kites. Each of which is more expensive than you entire picnic basket, including the sponge cake you were so proud of.

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Note the alcohol consumption and chatter while children play around them. Alcohol must be beer for the men and champagne for the ladies. all consumed in expensive glassware.

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The afore mentioned chatter must consist of the three Rs (Rugby, Rules and/or Rowing), PTA goings on and plastic surgery (although this tends to be mentioned by the females).

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If you are still in doubt as to the origin of your fellow picnicers dont forget to sneak a peak at the car park. today i observed several 4WDs and a mercedes, a BMW and a Lexus all parked in a pretty little row. Also be on the look out for new (post 1995) volvos.

Celebrating Ten Years in the Blogosphere

2012 marks the tenth anniversary of publishing my thoughts, feelings and experiences online in the format of blogs. It also marks the fifteenth anniversary of my maintaining an online presence, which began with a simple Angelfire vanity site that I built using notepad and then later Dreamweaver. The phrase “old and nerdy” definitely springs to mind.

To celebrate my tenth year in the blogosphere, I will be republishing a blog post every month from each of my ten years. But I really must add the following disclaimer:

Many of my very early (and not so early) blog posts are ridiculously cringe worthy. This is due to both subject matter and spelling and grammar concerns. But to be fair, I was nineteen and impressively self-absorbed when I began writing them. They are also highly identifiable. All of my twenty-teen concerns about maintaining people’s privacy and not talking about work online were simply non existent in the early naughties. As such, when republishing particular posts I may edit some details so that they are a little less blatantly identifying. But I shall endeavour to stay true to their original tone.

So stay tuned for a journey through time and space, and please, try to be kind and non-judgemental. These were my formative years afterall.

The Nest (part one)

When I wasn’t busy working, studying and undertaking Maid of (dis)Honour duties last year, it was all about The Nest. ‘The Nest’ being my fabulous mid-century apartment in a ridiculously awesome building in a reasonably well-situated Brisbane suburb. The balconies, the floor to ceiling windows and the 1960s kitchen secured my heart on our first meeting and after a rather tumultuous engagement, she I were bound by a sacred contract on 27 May, 2011. There was only one, teensy, weensy little flaw in The Nest. The bathroom/laundry.

So as soon as moving, weddings and university were dispensed with, I began the renovations in earnest. And when I say “I”, I really mean my builder and plumber. “I” mostly just went shopping, had ‘creative’ ‘visions’ and coordinated the delivery of toilets and tiles. Still, the whole process had the giddy effect of being remarkably fun and incredibly grown up at the same time.

So for the renovation nuts among you, and to record what consumed most of my energy in November and December last year, I present: The Nest (part one):

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Resolutions?

Every year I pull together a list of resolutions, some nebulous, some concrete, and all ambitious. I usually have no problems with doing this. I’m a list writer, and I like to have goals. However, this year I feel very hesitant. Mostly because I’ve realised that my birthday’s proximity to new year means that any 2012 resolutions will essentially form my pre-thirty ‘bucket-list’.

Now, don’t get me wrong. I’m not particularly worried about turning thirty (in 2013), but something about this year’s resolutions has me frozen in my sandals.

In an extreme state of exhaustion late last year I impulsively decided that the best resolution I could make for 2012 would be ‘no life-changing decisions’. None of this spontaneous ‘Hmmm, I might do a Masters degree’ or ‘Hmmmm, I might buy an apartment’ crap. All I really want is to just ‘be’ for a year.

However, if my itchy career feet are any indication, I suspect I will fail quite miserably at this. And also – what a pathetic resolution to have before turning thirty! Surely it should be something adventurous and crazy like bungee jumping, or sky diving, or learning how to do a cartwheel? And I’m sure I was supposed to learn how to play Mahjong by the time I was thirty.

Urgh. I am so not going to do any of those things. This is probably the best I can do:

  • Learn how to ride a bike (NB: this is held over from last year, and I’m 40% of the way there. I have a bike).
  • Sew a quilt for myself – I always sew for others. Now it’s my turn!
  • Pace myself – no sense in rushing things, it’s too exhausting.
  • Adjust to life with a mortgage and find a pastime other than shopping.
  • Enjoy the moments.
  • And as advised by a friend – learn how to walk and think about boys at the same time.

2012. Let’s do this thing.

2011

If I had to describe 2011 in one word it would be cacophony. It was a great big mishmash of everything wonderful and everything icky. From the death of my grandfather, my dog and for a little while there my hope, all the way to finishing my first year of  a Masters degree, getting a promotion, discovering new friends, treasuring old friends and buying my first apartment.

2011 had it all, and as I sat down to bring together my inevitable round up of the year it became very clear that it was as chaotically organised and expressed as it was lived – across no less than 5 different social media platforms.

So I present a summary of 2011 in a series of ‘Top 5s’ and occasionally ‘Top 7s’. All of which share a little something of the year that was. Here’s hoping 2012 will prove to be slightly less chaotic.

Top 5 Photos

Top 5 Blog Posts

Top 5 Badges Unlocked on FourSquare

Top 5 Songs

Top 7 Tweets